Spencer

Jan. 16th, 2015 10:07 pm
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The night at the club had been a disaster and Hex had let himself stew until he couldn't stand it. He'd broken it off with Spencer before he'd even known what he was doing. The words had been so quick to come, and even quicker to regret.

It wasn't even as if they saw one another often, but Hex found himself missing Spencer with an acute ache that drooped his shoulders and stole his smile.

And so it was days later and he only hurt more with every passing day. Even though Spencer had said he'd prefer a clean break if they were breaking it off Hex couldn't take it. And at the end of his shift, after he'd changed, Hex pulled out his mobile. He hadn't yet deleted Spencer's information. And so he began to type.

I know you said to not contact you but I miss you and I'm so sorry and I just want to see you and tell you I know I'm an arse and beg you for another chance. I won't push for anything more than you can give but I am sick without you. I miss you.

And then all he could do was wait. He started to walk to the tube stop but he didn't go down. He didn't want to lose signal just in case Spencer decided to text him back.

Date: 2015-01-17 06:20 am (UTC)
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Spencer hadn't been doing very well either, if he was honest, and everyone around him had noticed. His temper was short, and his mood grey- And he'd become even more withdrawn and quiet than usual.

He felt so alone and so- So wrong. Hex's words ate at him, a constant reminder that he was different- Possibly too different to ever truly connect with anyone.

When Hex's text came through, the young agent was on the floor of his flat, surrounded by books and leaning back against a few cushions as he re-read one of his favourites. A glance to his left was all it took to see the sender's name, and he swallowed hard as he returned his attention to his his book, letting the slightly yellowed pages calm him.

It was hours later when he finally read it, unsure of how to respond- and wondering if he even should. The more he thought about what had happened, what Hex had said, the more upset he became- And Spencer found himself unsure if he was willing to let Hex back into his life at all.

It was just after midnight when he finally texted back.

I'm never going to be normal.

That's all the first text said. A passive way of letting Hex know that what he'd said had hurt- and lingered.

A moment later, he sent another.

Are you sure you want to try again, and that you're not just hoping I've suddenly become what you want me to be?

Date: 2015-01-17 06:44 am (UTC)
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Spencer held his phone for a long moment, not sure he was ready to commit to something like that yet- Not until he was sure Hex really wanted to start again, and not just pick up where they'd left off- Since that clearly hadn't been going well.

Texting was hard also- Spencer didn't pick up on social cues well as it was, and it was even harder when there was no sense of tone or emotion.

Can you come over?

Date: 2015-01-17 06:51 am (UTC)
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Spencer looked around at the mess he'd been living in, and started to tidy up- Returning books to their shelves, and stacking them neatly. It was a small improvement, but at least his flat no longer looked like a library that had found itself in the path of a tornado.

Date: 2015-01-17 07:00 am (UTC)
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Spencer took a moment to fuss with his hair, but it was impossible to improve the strange mess of shaggy waves, and he soon gave up and went to open the door.

His heart skipped a beat at the sight of Hex- Though he couldn't tell if it was excitement or nerves.

"Hi," he greeted awkwardly, offing a small wave. "I'm sorry I asked you over so late- I just... I thought this conversation was something that should happen in person."

Date: 2015-01-17 07:16 am (UTC)
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Spencer nodded, backing up so Hex could step inside.

"I'm sorry it's so messy- I cleaned up a bit, but..."

He trailed off, offering that awkward smile of his and shrugging one shoulder.

"Do you want a cup of coffee or anything?"

Date: 2015-01-17 07:21 am (UTC)
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Spencer nodded, looking down at his hands.

"I've missed you too. ...Let me get you some tea, then we can sit and talk. I won't keep you up too late," he promised.

Date: 2015-01-17 07:30 am (UTC)
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"No, I'm fine," Spencer insisted, using the moment alone to pull himself together, before returning with Hex's tea, and a can of cola for himself.

"Why did you change your mind?" he asked bluntly. "I assumed I'd never see you again, and then- Suddenly you'd had a change of heart. Why?"

Date: 2015-01-17 07:46 am (UTC)
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"What does that mean exactly? What changes?" Spencer asked.

Date: 2015-01-17 06:00 pm (UTC)
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Spencer was silent for a long moment, then nodded a little in agreement.

"I think I'd like that," he said honestly. "I'd like to know you better as well, Hex."

Date: 2015-01-17 10:31 pm (UTC)
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"I'd like that- You're not pushing, Hex. I think friendship is where it should have started all along," Spencer replied, offering a cautiously optimistic smile.

Date: 2015-01-17 11:04 pm (UTC)
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Spencer blushed also, ducking his head a little. "We could re-introduce a physical element, if you want- But only if you're sure you can handle being friends and also being intimate."

Date: 2015-01-18 03:22 am (UTC)
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Spencer hesitated a beat, then reached out and took Hex's hand in his.

"We'll take small steps then."

Date: 2015-01-18 03:47 am (UTC)
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"Will you tell me more about you then? Maybe... Maybe we can ask each other questions," he suggested.

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