just_hex | Fin

It was Christmas-time and Hex was so happy. He'd baked and taken the sweets to work to share, he'd put up lights and decorations and he'd bought new ornaments for the tree he and Danny were going to trim. This evening he was out shopping. The sun was just beginning to go down, still early in the day, really, and there was a distinct nip in the air. He had been to Harrod's and he'd been to a few other shops. He had several bags hanging in his gloved hand as he stopped to admire a toy disply, thinking he should get something for his mate Mark's children.

And then he spotted Fin and those thoughts vanished into thin air. He wondered if maybe Fin's magic was weak and his vision useless and the man would pass on by. Hex still didn't know how to make amends and though he'd been working on just that sort of thing in his meetings, Fin was by far the worst of his transgretions and he was at a loss for how to express his deep regret.

First, he thought to himself, you could not be a wanker. You could say something to him and get his attention. Then let him take you as he will. That's his right. Wank.

And so he took a breath.

"-Lo, Fin," he said to the man coming toward him.

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just_hex

"He's positive. It's how we met. We'd known one another at the clubs back when, but I did his HIV test and broke the news to him last December. We dated a bit, but now we're serious so I'm on it. Just in case," he explained between hits.

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prince_of_nymphs

"He must be something special, to go through all that," Fin said, trying to sound supportive, but coming off just a bit put out. Part of him, a small bitter part, didn't want Hex to have a happy ever after. Not after what he'd done. ...Not if it didn't benefit him somehow.

He knew that was selfish and cruel, but the feeling sat heavy in his gut, weighing him down.

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just_hex

"He is. He's quite special," he replied, tempering Fin's tone with his own gentle words. The pot was good quality and Hex felt soft and easy. He took one more hit then offered it to Fin.

"He's been through it. Had a hard past year and a bit. But he's a good man. Most honest man I've ever met. And he's beautiful," he said, smiling softly. "Looks a bit like you to be quite honest."

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prince_of_nymphs

"But he's not me," Fin replied, perhaps a touch quicker than he'd have liked.

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just_hex

Hex was quiet for a moment, then closed his eyes.

"No. He's not you," he agreed, soft and slightly sad. "But he's mine and I'm his and it's us against the world, yeah? Us together. We're solid. I'm all in with him."

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prince_of_nymphs

"You against the world, is it? Not a terribly healthy mentality that, Hex. I feel like the you I met way back when would have known that," Fin replied softly and calmly, despite the focused and sharp look on his face.

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just_hex

"The world wasn't against me, then. But things are different now," he replied easily, settling into the sofa comfortably with his tea. He was no longer nauseous and grateful for it.

"...It's a long story and I'm sure you'd think I'm mad. Everyone thinks I'm mad," he continued, huffing a bitter little chuckle.

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prince_of_nymphs

"Mad isn't the word lingering on my tongue," the fae assured him, watching Hex for a moment, then looking away.

"That it then? You as good as owned me for a night, and now you're just finished? It's all you and this Danny bloke from now on. Is he good then? Better than me? More fun?"

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just_hex

That hurt and Hex was just high enough that he couldn't bother to hide it. His brows drew in and he moved to Fin, to touch him. His arm. His face.

"Don't be like that, Fin. Please. You know how much I want you but you can't ask me to cheat on him. Ruin his life, too? Ruin everything for everyone? Is that who I am now?" he asked, unaware he didn't make as much sense as it seemed like in his head.

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prince_of_nymphs

"Didn't ask you to do anything," Fin said softly. "You wanted to kiss me. ...At least I thought you did."

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just_hex

Fin could put him in a twist without hardly trying. Simple words. Those eyes. Those lips. Hex fixed his gaze on Fin's mouth for a long moment before nodding.

"I did," he agreed. "You know I did."

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prince_of_nymphs

Fin heard those words and immediately felt guilty. Hex didn't deserve this from him. For all the shit that had happened between them, they were friends. Hell, Hex had been his best friend- Hadn't he been punished enough? Wasn't it time to just... Stop lashing out and manipulating people?

"I'm sorry," Fin said softly. "I'm really sorry, Hex. ...This isn't fair of me, none of it is. I do want you to be happy, and I know- I know nothing will ever bring you more joy than having someone in your life who's yours alone."

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just_hex

"I wish that someone was you," he said, just high enough to forget about using that cursed bloody word.

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prince_of_nymphs

Fin bristled at that word, shuddering as he fought against his magic.

"Take it back," he pleaded calmly. "Take those words back, Hex."

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just_hex

"Oh, shit...I take it back. I take it back!" he said, real terror rushing through him at the thought of another catastrophic wish. "I didn't mean it. I didn't mean..."

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prince_of_nymphs

"It's fine, It's... It's fine, just- maybe don't use that word around me," Fin suggested quietly, looking uncomfortable and squirming a little.

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just_hex

"You'd think I'd learned me lesson," he sighed. Hex raised his hand to cover his eyes. "I just keep fucking up."

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prince_of_nymphs

"We all do, Hex. Fucking up is just part of a perfectly normal existence," Fin assured him. "It's been a weird night, you weren't thinking straight, that's all."

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just_hex

"Seems I can never think straight around you, to be quite honest," he chuckled nervously .

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prince_of_nymphs

"I do seem to have that effect on some people," Fin frowned. "...Maybe- Maybe it's best we're apart."

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just_hex

"I know that's true...but the thought of it kills me," Hex replied quietly .

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prince_of_nymphs

"I'm not fond of the idea either," Fin confessed. "You're... You were my best friend, and not having you in my life has been so hard. I hate it. I want you back in my world, Hex. I need you."