Danny

[just_hex]

After leaving Fin's Hex had taken his time getting to the tube. He'd waited on the train and every moment that passed made him more and more queasy. He knew he needed to come clean with Danny. He knew he needed to accept responsibility for his actions. But he didn't want to. A big part of him wanted to go on without saying anything at all. Maybe Danny wouldn't notice.

He knew that wasn't true, though.

Danny noticed. Danny knew. He just knew things. It was impossible to lie to him, even moreso since Hex was a shit liar.

He finally came into the house well after dark and took off his jacket. He'd hoped Danny was out getting high but the lights were on and he knew the man was home. No avoiding this any longer, then.

"You home?" he called as he shed his jacket.

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[just_hex]

"You are home," he said softly. "Everything about you is exactly what I've dreamed of all me life. Danny, I love you..."

It wasn't enough. Words weren't enough. He didn't know how to tell Danny he was everything. Everything he'd ever dreamed of, everything he'd ever hoped for. A part of him began to resent Fin a bit, for having such power over him. He knew, without a doubt, the next time they were together Hex would be overcome with the mad desire to fuck Fin senseless. But now, right now, here when he was sane, Hex couldn't dream of anyone more perfect than Danny.

[london_spy]

Danny slipped his arm around Hex, ducking his head and exhaling softly against the other man's neck. All the while he tried hard not to think about the fact that Hex had likely spoken similar words to Fin.

[just_hex]

Hex held on for a long moment. His heart thudded in his chest and all the fears and worries he had carried with him on the tube ride home slowly began to fade. He finally moved and cupped Danny's cheek so he could look into his eyes.

"I love you so much," he said. "Meeting you that day you came into the clinic was the luckiest day of me whole life."

[london_spy]

"Kind of a miserable way to reconnect," Danny pointed out with an uncomfortable and dry sounding laugh.

[just_hex]

"No. Not at all," he replied with a soft smile. "Not the dream of love at first sight, but..."

Danny had had love at first sight with Alex. He'd had love, passion, devotion. Hex only hoped he felt a fraction of those same feelings for him. Alex's ghost was difficult to compete with.

[london_spy]

"Getting a possible death sentence isn't a great way to spark romance," Danny replied quietly, exhaling softly, then curling up against Hex again.

[just_hex]

"I think there was a reason it was me that did your test. Fate, yeah? It turned to be something. Something good."

He kissed Danny then, soft and slow.

"A good thing. The best thing."

[london_spy]

Danny nodded a bit, a soft sigh escaping him as his eyes slipped shut and he found himself focusing on the touch of Hex's hands and the perfect heat of his body.

"I'm really tired tonight," he confessed.

[just_hex]

"Then you should sleep," he replied gently. "Come on. Get ready for bed. I'll rub your back a bit if you like."

[london_spy]

"I'd rather you just held me," Danny smiled softly.

[just_hex]

Hex smiled and kissed Danny's forehead.

"Happy to," he said, then pulled away so he could get changed into night clothes and brush his teeth. He kept peeking at Danny to see if he was doing the same preparations.

[london_spy]

Danny moved a bit slower, finishing his tea before getting up to change into a pair of pyjama bottoms. Half bare, he paused to view himself in the mirror, frowning at the sight of bones and fragile looking skin. He needed to take better care, he thought- Just as he thought nearly every night, even though his habits barely changed.

Soon he was in the bathroom beside Hex, brushing his teeth and scrutinizing the dark circles under his eyes.

[just_hex]

Hex spit and rinsed and stepped back so Danny could have the sink. He reached out and laid his hand on the man's back, rubbing up and down slowly.

"You're so beautiful," he said. He could see past those dark circles, the foam in his mouth, the unkempt hair. Hex saw deeper than the cosmetics, he saw who Danny was. Perhaps love made him blind to any flaws...he didn't care, though. He liked what he saw.

[london_spy]

Danny wanted to laugh at that, but a mouthful of foam kept him silent a minute longer, until he was rinsing and spitting. Even then though, he didn't speak- He turned and simply kissed Hex's cheek. He wasn't beautiful, not like he'd once seen himself anyway. ...It was nice that Hex thought so though. It was nice to hear.

[just_hex]

"Now, to bed with you, love," he said, slipping an arm protectively around Danny to lead him to bed. Once he was tucked in, Hex put out the light and climbed in with him. He held him again. Warm and solid, he wanted to make the other man feel safe and sure.

[london_spy]

Danny was a bit restless under the sheets at first, squirming and twisting until he was on his side, his back pressed up tight against Hex's chest.

"Do you still find me sexy?" he asked quietly, a slightly nervous tint to his tone.

[just_hex]

Hex pressed a kiss against the back of Danny's neck. His arm around him tightened and he rocked his hips forward, pressing the evidence against the man's ass of what even that bit of squirming did to him.

"Yes," he said. "Always. You turn me on whenever you're near. And when you're not here just the thought of you can make me ache."

[london_spy]

Danny relaxed a little, rocking back against Hex.

"You'll tell me if that ever changes, wont you?" he asked.

[just_hex]

"Do you think it might?" he asked. "Do you think a day will come when I don't think you're the sexiest man I've ever met? If, for some bizarre reason, that ever happens...I'll tell you."

But he honestly couldn't fathom such a thing happening.

[london_spy]

"It could happen," Danny insisted quietly, rocking back again- Teasing this time.

[just_hex]

"And the Thames could turn into pudding, I reckon," he chuckled, holding Danny tighter. He pressed more kisses to the back of his neck and along his shoulder as far as he could reach.

"...Neither is bloody likely, though."

[london_spy]

Danny let out a soft little moan, closing his eyes and exhaling softly.

"I hope you're right," he said softly.

[just_hex]

"About me, I'm sure. About the Thames...stranger things have happened," he teased softly, then licked Danny's neck with the tip of his tongue only to chill the wet stripe with his breath.

[london_spy]

Danny let out a soft laugh, followed by a quiet little gasp.

"Fair enough," he agreed, reaching back and lightly holding onto Hex's hip.

[just_hex]

"That's more like it," he murmured. He raked his teeth over Danny's wet skin. This sort of affection was as natural as breathing for him. He couldn't imagine not being able to be close to Danny, taking as much comfort as he was giving.