Spencer

[just_hex]

Hex's attitude had brightened over the past weeks to the point that even the people at the hospital had noticed. No one gave him a hard time when he announced he had a boyfriend, but Caro did wink and nod and made him blush.

This week he'd lucked out and had actually gotten the weekend off...every dog had its day...and he'd made plans with Spencer. Hex had cooked, nothing terribly fancy, just some chicked and some oven baked chips, and he'd set up a new documentary in his queue. He really was itching to go out but he and Spencer had never really discussed...well, he doubted very much he'd get Spencer out to the Hoist and he wasn't too keen on going to a bar.

He met Spencer at the door with a smile, the rich scent of dinner filling his flat. The first impulse was to kiss him but Hex was always very careful, very purposeful when he touched Spencer. The last thing he wanted was to startle him.

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[just_hex]

"Caro? At Christmas and the like, sure," Hex said. "But not otherwise. The blokes I play football with are fun, but none of them are me superiors. I've never gone in for that sort of thing, I guess."

[dr_spencer_reid]

"That sort of thing? ...What sort of thing?" Spencer asked, looking puzzled.

[just_hex]

"Well, they're in charge, yeah? My boss, not me mate," Hex replied. "There was one Doctor who was more a mate than a boss, but for all me life I've never tried to be friendly with anyone in charge."

[dr_spencer_reid]

"I've always been friendly with people above me. Hotch, my teachers, Gideon... And I'm hoping now that he's here, Hotch and I can be social even more often."

[just_hex]

"He's not your boss now, though, yeah," Hex smiled. "He and you can be mates. Best mates..."

It didn't seem a bit odd- of course Spencer would be mates with Hotchner. It was only obvious he cared for the man and admired him, too. Hex could see that plain as day.

[dr_spencer_reid]

"Yeah, I guess we can," Spencer nodded, smiling brightly at that, and returning his attention to his meal.

"I used to have a bit of a crush on him," he admitted as he ate. "Well, I suppose I still do, so I shouldn't use the past tense," he added thoughtfully, more focused on his choice of words than what he was saying.

"Though I couldn't have ever told him. He was still married then, and engaging in an intimate relationship would have been against the rules."

[just_hex]

Only then did Hex really catch on to Spencer's line of thinking. He lost his appetite and put his plate down, looking at the other man for a minute.

"I see," he said, not sure of Spencer was being direct or if he genuinely wasn't thinking to the consequences of his words. So he tread carefully. "Are you...would you like to date him? Instead of me?" he asked, dreading what the answer might be.

[dr_spencer_reid]

"I didn't- I... Hex, I don't even think Aaron is interested in me that way," Spencer replied, looking uncomfortable. "And our relationship is still new, I didn't think we were so serious. ...I mean, I'm not- I haven't seen anyone but you, but I wasn't aware that we were exclusive. I assumed you were still going to clubs to, um, satisfy your other interests."

[just_hex]

He was quiet for another long moment after that. He wasn't entirely certain what to say, truthfully.

"I...haven't. Been out," he said, choosing to address that first. "We never said we were, erm, exclusive but...I haven't been out."

[dr_spencer_reid]

"Oh," Spencer replied, nodding a bit and looking uncomfortable.

[just_hex]

"Is that odd? Would you rather I...erm, well...I've never had a boyfriend before. Not...not for serious. For more than a night. A week on the outset. I thought that we, with us having a night together every week, I thought we were..."

He paused to scratch his nose and watched Spencer closely.

"We should talk this out. So we're clear," he decided.

[dr_spencer_reid]

"Alright," Spencer said, nodding and encouraging Hex to speak his mind.

[just_hex]

He should have known that would happen. Hex wet his lips and managed a smile.

"I fancy you. Quite a lot," he said. "I look forward to seeing you. Every text you send makes me smile. I want to be within you whenever I can. I don't know if it's love, but I like you so much and I care for you. So...if we were to be exclusive, I'd be comfortable with that. But if you'd rather have more freedom, I understand."

[dr_spencer_reid]

"I care for you too, but- This is new to me as well, and- I think I'd like to take it slow. Just for now. I'm not saying I'm going to see other people- There aren't other people- I just... I need to go slow, Hex."

[just_hex]

Slow was not bad. Slow was not stop. Slow was something Hex could agree to.

"Alright. We'll go slowly," he promised. "We'll keep on as we've been and if anything changes we'll talk about it first, yeah?"

[dr_spencer_reid]

Spencer relaxed, and nodded.

"That sounds good," he said, smiling softly.

[just_hex]

"I'd really like to kiss you now," he said softly. Then Hex reached out to take hold of him, his hands firm but careful. Hex kissed him, sweet and slow.

"I like that we're mates," he said. "I think that's good."

[dr_spencer_reid]

Spencer sighed softly into the kiss, then smiled. "I'm really glad I met you Hex."

[just_hex]

"Yeah, I'm glad, too."

He pulled away and smiled at Spencer, his eyes darkened with affection and desire.

"DO you want to rewind this show? We've missed a bit..."

[dr_spencer_reid]

"No," Spencer smiled. "I'm enjoying talking to you. ...And the kissing. That's nice too."

[just_hex]

"I like talking, too. I want to know everything about you, Spencer. Everything you like. I want to know about your job, and what you read, and what it was like when you were a boy. I want to know everything."

Part of him felt that it was horribly unfair of him to hope to know Spencer completely because he had such a huge secret. He could never tell anyone about the Doctor. Spencer was so reasonable- he'd probably think Hex was mental.

[dr_spencer_reid]

" I want to know everything about you as well," Spencer replied. "But, um, I feel like there are a few things you deserve to know about me. ...And my family," he confessed, his smile fading.

[just_hex]

Hex's brows drew down in concern. "Oh? What is it, Spencer?" he asked, twisting so he could face the man, his hand resting lightly on Spencer's thigh.

[dr_spencer_reid]

"I feel like you should know that my mother is, um... She's not well. She's living in a mental health facility in Las Vegas. ...She's been there since I was eighteen. ...Since I had her committed," he confessed quietly.

[just_hex]

"Oh? Oh. Oh..." he said, so utterly stunned he didn't know what else to say for the time being. It did answer why Spencer didn't mention his family often. At all, really. Now that Hex thought of it he could hardly recall Spencer mentioning his mum.

"And your dad?" he asked. "Where was he through that?"